The other day I posted something about the song “Better Days”… and hearing it again when I happened to see the movie “Eat, Pray, Love”. I also mentioned the story’s “partly autobiographical”…No, not that I wrote it 
But it does parallel my life somewhat.
So, anyway, I’ve eaten…had my fill of the good stuff (and I’m not just talking about food) and I know pretty much I’ll keep on wanting to do that – enjoy life’s pleasures.
But then, I might have just bypassed pray altogether…although I like to think that every time I marveled at something new or old, something simple, an experience, a new friendship, it was already a form of prayer. Then again, perhaps it’s time to take it up a notch. Or go deeper.
I knew I went straight to love… a great many loves. And I’ve felt the most amazing connections really, but without the right foundation for it, I now find myself at a crossroads.
Between thinking this is all that I want – to be single and happily living my life on my own. And then there’s this tug on my heartstrings that whispers I would also be happy sharing my life. Again.
I said once that most of my relationships are short-term because that is all I can handle at the moment, that it’s all that I want, all that I’m being…so I am drawn to those kinds of relationships.
And I admit, I know how true that is for me.
Only, like I said, I quit the superficial stuff… it’s not enough anymore. I want something with more substance and real intimacy.
But I may just be jumping ahead of myself here. Bypassing “pray” might not have been such a great idea after all. I was just in such a hurry to live big and love great. I wanted to take it all in and I still do. I see nothing wrong with that, but perhaps balancing that with a little more introspection would be good too?
So, here’s the thing.
Where I’m from, the “Holy Week” is a huge thing (meaning, a long holiday season, no work, and practically most shops and clubs are closed). Perfect time to engage in a little introspection. Or a lot.
Depends on what I find when I get there.
And while I’m doing that, all will be quiet in this blog (and maybe my other blogs as well).
See you on the other side.
Wish me luck.
